Friday, October 28, 2011

The tiredness continues. This morning I was really tired, like "I should not be awake, this might be dangerous" kind of tired. I woke up at 5 to go over my notes for the reading group tonight. Should I cut that out of my life, because it's too much work? I don't know. I don't want to.

I've also been getting into a routine of waking up with a jolt at 3 a.m. I am usually able to fall back asleep right away. Still, it is weird and I wish it didn't happen.

Anyway, I think sleep will be good medicine tomorrow. I promised myself not to start on the chores until noon.

Sunday, October 16, 2011


Thursday, October 13, 2011


I think I'd be a lot better at my job if I got an extra hour of sleep every night. I woke up today and thought, if I could just sleep in until 8 a.m. I would feel *so good.* But no, into the shower, point the blow dryer at my head, sit at the computer all day. I've discovered that napping after work just tricks you into thinking you can stay up until 10, thus making you feel even worse the next day. So it's just tiredness until the weekend. One day away. I don't drink coffee in the mornings, I'm starting to understand why so many people do...

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

My OWN addiction

I seriously think I could get addicted to OWN (the Oprah Winfrey Network, in case you didn't know). It just became available on basic cable. Yesterday I started watching "Our America with Lisa Ling." It was about transgender people. It was the second episode I've watched (the first was about faith healing) and I think it's a great show. A sensitive look at the issues without dumbing them down. "True Life" without any of the trashiness and actually featuring some people over 30.

Today I saw Lisa Ling tweet about Season 2, "The shows are AMAZING, I swear." If it was anyone else I might think they are super arrogant. But in this case Season 2 just might be AMAZING.

Monday, October 10, 2011

On my other blog: The Third Man.

From Netflix

Dear Annette,

It is clear that for many of our members two websites would make things more difficult, so we are going to keep Netflix as one place to go for streaming and DVDs.

This means no change: one website, one account, one password…in other words, no Qwikster.

While the July price change was necessary, we are now done with price changes.

We're constantly improving our streaming selection. We've recently added hundreds of movies from Paramount, Sony, Universal, Fox, Warner Bros., Lionsgate, MGM and Miramax. Plus, in the last couple of weeks alone, we've added over 3,500 TV episodes from ABC, NBC, FOX, CBS, USA, E!, Nickelodeon, Disney Channel, ABC Family, Discovery Channel, TLC, SyFy, A&E, History, and PBS.

We value you as a member, and we are committed to making Netflix the best place to get your movies & TV shows.


The Netflix Team

Thank God!

On a different note, Qwikster sounds like a cute name for a hamster.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Five days off

I took five days off work this week. It's amazing how many of the "have to"s of life have gone away this week. I don't have to get up at 5:05 a.m. I don't have to drive home in afternoon traffic. I don't have to make a list of have tos and check each one off one by one.

I guess I've never really noticed how much anxiety every obligation creates. I've tried to notice this week when a knot of anxiety bubbles up. One did yesterday. I was waiting for my sister so we could go to lunch. She was ten minutes late. I started worrying, did she forget? What are we going to talk about? What if she doesn't like the restaurant I chose? I sat there on my bed, waiting, worrying.

Then I said to myself, why are you even worrying about this? Like I was talking to a small child I told myself to take ten deep breaths and get a glass of water. I don't have to do this. If my sister never arrives I could sit on my bed all day and no one would care. If she arrives two hours late, we'll go to lunch two hours late. Not like I'm on a schedule today. Something inside me let go and the worry floated away.

I checked my text messages. From my sister: "Of course I'm running late but I'll be there soon. :-) sorry, I suck."

I started playing a puzzle game on my iPod Touch. I hardly ever play games anymore. I think they can be a waste of time. Usually I have other stuff I deem more important. But not this week. I sat there and played it and enjoyed it. My sister came by at 1:30, we had a nice lunch then watched TV reruns (another thing I usually consider a time-waster but allowed myself to do this week).

I suppose this week just makes me question what are the things I really do need to do, that are worth some anxiety, and what are the things that I stress about when I shouldn't. Maybe there is a pathway out of anxiety somewhere in this week.

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Day 2 of vacation and I'm looking to see if there is enough dust accumulated on my desk to make dusting worthwhile. I think the answer is yes. Darn.